[NOTE - Anyone who is just beginning to read my blog might want to read the following early entries in my blog about my sissy journey before reading this latest entry: A Little More Background - Am I Sure I Should Do This? - I'm Afraid - These - Where It All Started - Then, These - Miss Flo - Caught For The First Time - About My Last Post - Bikini Panties!!! - A Virgin Bride (And Groom) - Exhausted Sissy Needs Stress Relief! - Sissy Marries Cheerleader - Sissy Makes Life With Cheerleader - Cheerleader Discovers Sissy - Cheerleader Accepts Sissy - Cheerleader And Sissy Grow - Cheerleader Asserts Control - Cheerleader Teases Sissy - Cheerleader And Sissy Settle In To New Home - Cheerleader Cucks Sissy - Cheerleader and Sissy Are Mentored - Sissy Offers Context For Cheerleader - Sissy Sees Her Future - Sissy Adapts To Chastity - Sissy And Cheerleader Spend A Weekend Apart – Our Weekend Apart Aftermath – Cheerleader Has A Heart-To-Heart With Sissy - Sissy And Cheerleader's Last Weekend With Andrea - Part One - Sissy And Cheerleader's Last Weekend With Andrea - Part Two - Cheerleader Thanks Sissy - Cheerleader Does A Sleepover - How My Cheerleader Vets Men - Cheerleader Flirts - With Purpose - Cheerleader Is A Happy Girl - Cheerleader Learns – Juggling Isn’t Easy - Cheerleader Gets An Itch - My Cheerleader's Summer of Contentment – My Cheerleader and Her Quarterback - Cheerleader and Sissy Reach Accord (And Satisfaction) - Sissy Catches Up, Cheerleader Goes Sailing - Discovered! - It Was Bound To Happen Sooner Or Later - Quarterback Discovers Leeanne - I Have Good News. And News - Quarterback Is Visiting For Labor Day - Cheerleader Speaks - My New Sissy Life - Kittens Love Cream. These are the previous posts that tell the story about my sissy journey.]
It has been a little over a month since my ex discovered my
sissy's blog and we busted her. As you
have been made privy to by my sissy, she has experienced some new things since
then. But then again, so have I. I have been silent since I last contributed
to her blog. Don't take that to mean I
have been unaware of what she has been posting, or what her readers have
offered by way of observations. I must
say, I am finding this entire thing quite intriguing. I thought maybe it was time for me to share a
little more about my observations. I'm
also replying to the comments left by readers on my first post on my sissy's
blog - Cheerleader Speaks.
May I make a small confession?
This entire thing - accepting my husband as a sissy - growing together
as I learned that I do, in fact, enjoy cuckolding her - has been complicated
for me. And please understand something
else - even though I have pointed out how this all began when she dropped the
bomb on me that she had these feminine thoughts and feelings swirling around
inside of her - and how hard it was for me to accept that the man I married
wasn't - I do realize that it hasn't been all that easy on my sissy
either. Take, for example, this most
recent experience she was put through by me and my ex - the kitten treatment as
I call it - you've, no doubt read her recounting of the weekend. I was there with a front row seat. That was a difficult weekend for her. Now, here is the twist. I thought it was going to be difficult for me
too. I had some idea what my ex had in
mind. I even tried to talk him out of it
at first. But he convinced me we should
do it. I've even wondered if he hasn't
figured something out about my sissy that I had not seen before - her deep and
dark desire to be treated in such a fashion.
But I digress. I should let her
speak to that. What I am trying to say
is that I found myself getting off on it.
Seeing her like that? Crawling
behind me on her leash? Submitting to my
man in such a humiliating way. I mean,
seeing her on her hands and knees as he led her from the den up to our bedroom,
the entire time my sissy being expected to keep her mouth locked onto his
cock? It was beyond the pale of anything
I'd seen her submit to previously. And
then, when she wrote about her weekend as our kitten? The way she described her reaction to being
called a cocksucker by my ex? I just
don't even know how to describe how it affected me. I mean, yes.
She sucks cocks. I have watched
her do it countless times now. And I do
see that she enjoys it and is very, very good at it. But no one has ever called her a
cocksucker. That sounds so, well,
degrading. Especially to call another
man a cocksucker. But the thing is, when
my sissy is sucking cock, she isn't a man.
Not really. She is all feminine. And that is why she is so good at it, in my
opinion. But it hit me as I read her
recounting the kitten experience - she liked being called a cocksucker by my
ex. For the first man who ever had me to
be calling my husband a cocksucker is a turn on for my sissy. And now?
I'm finding that I kind of like it also.
I like the aspect of humiliation more now than I have in the past. And I'm just not sure where else I want to go
with it. But I think I want to go
elsewhere with it. My ex may have opened
my eyes to something - some aspect of my relationship with my sissy - that I
just couldn't see on my own - much like the way Andrea made me see how much of
a mutual thing cuckolding her could be back in the early stages.
I have not shared these thoughts with my sissy before giving her
this to post. She'll be posting it as
soon as I email it to her, along with all of my responses to her readers'
questions and comments to me. I look
forward to reading what sort of reaction her readers will have to my thoughts. Will you think me too tough on her? Too mean?
Too what? I want to know.
Bye,
Cheerleader
grazie amore sei sempre così eccitante con i tuoi scritti ed immagini che mi eccito sempre ogni volta che ti leggo ed ammiro !! grazie e baci baci baci
ReplyDeleteHi Ms Cheerleader
ReplyDeleteYour Sweet Sissy husband s account of his kitten treatment over that weekend couldn't be clearer...she has a need for the humiliation, I know because I also have that deep craving!!! I think that you are both still in a growing relationship and after years of marriage you're still finding out new things about each other and I think that's wonderful!!!
My only suggestion,,,,you can take it or leave it...is to allow Leeanne an escape valve!!! Something as simple as a safe word to let you know that you've passed the point that she can handle at that point and she needs it to stop!!! I haven't used the safe word often in all the years we've been playing these games but I have used it on more than one occasion.....and she respects me enough to know that I need to stop whatever is happening....
Whatever you wish to do together....do it with love....respect each other....make each others happiness your priority and you can never go wrong!!!
Thanks for sharing your perspectives!
Love to you both
Kaaren
Hi Cheerleader,
ReplyDeleteThankyou so much for this blog, and also for your response to earlier comments. You can obviously tell how much we all care about Leeannes welfare, and offer advice/comfort where we can.
You obviously know how much Leeanne adores you and will do ANYTHING to keep you happy. I acknowledge how difficult it must have been for you when you found out that the man you married was not really a man.
Cuckold relationships can be challenging and most do not survive - In some circumstances the cuckold gets too jealous, but mostly the woman forms an attachment to her lover that she has to take further.
Andrea's help to you both was so important. Also one particular blog several years ago when Leeanne expressed her worry that you would leave her for Randall was very important. You reassured Leeanne of your love and total commitment to your marriage. You have kept to this and I applaud you Cheerleader.
As you have read my earlier comments,you know I was nervous for Leeanne about rekindling your sexual relationship with Tom, due to your history, and shared children etc. However this seems to be working, especially as you are still seeing other men ( a good thing !) This is JUST a sexual thing, no more.
The humiliation/dehumanisation does take this a stage further. 1 thing I learnt from that weekend - Leeanne seems to want and expect humiliation. What I was worried about was your attitude to your husband, not only as a cocksucking sissy, but as a pet animal. However at the end of the weekend, the "game" was over and you've clearly returned to your "normal" ideal marriage.
In my view it is important for you and Leeanne to accept these weekends/liaisons as pleasant diversions. It is also important that both of you are reassured of the others devotion.
Love always
Tanya xxxx
Dar Cheerleader,
ReplyDeleteThank you for your post and the perspective it adds to Leanne's account of your remarkable journey together.
Your concern that you are being too mean to Leanne reflects a deep compassion and caring for Leanne that is vital to your relationship. But if anything, you are "too" reluctant to accept Leanne's gift to you.
Think of it this way. Your acceptance of Leanne's submissive nature is a priceless gift to Leanne, and her gratitude is self-evident. Yes, what she has experienced with you and your quarterback has been hard for her. but that is what makes her service so valuable. She is willing to extend herself for the sake of your pleasure. That is her gift to you.
Toward the end of your account of Leanne's humiliation, you allow that you "kind of liked it." Yet reading what leads up to this rather tentative conclusion, I discern that you were deeply moved by her submission, but your are having trouble coming to terms with it -- with her being your cocksucker kitty.
Yours is a process of accepting that submission, not all at once but in stages. If I might suggest, not only accept but embrace that submission. Your quarterback is leading the way. Follow him. Take the gift that is yours for the taking.
Whether or not you find these observations helpful, please know that, as you have so graciously granted Leanne the privilege of serving you, and as I myself am devoted to the Noble Ideal service to women, I honor you.
Noble Ideal
Just wondering, does your ex have a blog/facebook/etc. where he posts his true thoughts about what he's doing in and to your relationship. I know how men like to brag (my ex did it to me) and they don't think anything about the other's who lives they are involved in. Again just curious to see what he's saying to others.
ReplyDeleteDear Lady Sonja,
ReplyDeleteNow there is an idea. I can almost see her now.
Thank you,
Cheerleader
Dear Cheerleader
ReplyDeleteYou asked for responses as to whether we think you are being too mean or too tough on your sissy. Your entire relationship has developed as a journey of the two of you. So the ONLY one who can answer that question is Leeanne.
The human psyche is a wide spectrum. What the vanilla world considers kinky is life to one living inside it. Leeanne had events in her childhood and / or in her genes that makes her feel comfortable being submissive and humiliated. That is the key; Leeanne feels comfortable with her status in life.
As long as she communicates to you her true feelings and you respect those feelings, you cannot go too far.
That said, I for one have a hard time crawling into Leeanne's head. I enjoyed the journey as he shared his forays into sissydom. But they seemed to be rooted with a conventional loving base. I felt your relationship was a game that you played and put away for periods at a time. Since you as a couple are no longer playing the game, but living the life, I have a hard time accepting Leeanne is being as truthful as he needs to be.
I base my observations on his reactions to when he first was able to enjoy conjugal relations with you. His joy in being a man seems hard to suppress. And he shares that same joy after your accord. To give that up completely is hard for me to accept that he is truly happy with the current state of affairs.
But that is just my reaction. I cannot crawl inside Leeanne's mind or yours. I cannot assume Leeanne is hiding his desire to please you as a husband. We have to take him at his word. It is just hard for me to accept.
So, again, as to whether you are too mean or tough, you have to rely on your relationship with your husband who perhaps is now really your wasband.
Please continue to share your journey. I find how the two of you relate to be the most interesting part of the tale.
Kisses
Billie Cee
Dear Cheerleader and Leeanne, while both of you are enjoying this type of relationship (and we've been in similar relationships although it didn't include the submissive part) I do hope the two of you are setting aside an equal amount of time for just yourselves. And it should be equal. If quarterback is there for a three day weekend, you should have a three day weekend just for the two of you. Cheerleader, make sure Leeanne gets to spend the same amount of loving time with you, even if it is without sex. Believe me it's important and we didn't follow this advice at one time. We survived it but it did create some serious trouble for a while.
ReplyDeleteGlad to see the two of you are back...and satisfied.
ReplyDeleteJames
Hi Cheerleader!
ReplyDeleteI personally think that your relationship is alive, exciting and vibrant. You love 2 people and they both love you. With that as a starting place, it's obvious that your kitty weekend was a turn on for everyone involved. Everyone had a different perspective and reason but having the opportunity to explore fantasies like that with people you love and trust is a wonderful thing. I say move forward and enjoy / learn / love ��❤️
Omg! Your description of the night is just amazing...i'm tenting my panties and leaking! ~sara
ReplyDeletei'm thinking Leanne is like me, a very submissive sissy who will try to do anything to please you. push her limits and use and degrade her as much as you want. I know that is what I would want
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